Everyone, to some degree, seeks a way to let out their creativity. It is more apparent to some such as the painter or baker. For others it can be less obvious like the person working on a car engine, or the parent encouraging their child’s imagination. But for many, no one ever gets to see our creative output. It all just gets left on the floor of the closets of our minds.
My creative outlet is writing, and for four years I had a wonderful opportunity to share it with the world. While the world never jumped on it, there were a loyal few who did, and to them I am grateful. While the love and passion for creating wasn’t always there, this was something that I loved.
I wasn’t sure just how important the website I wrote for was to me until we decided to go on a much needed hiatus. It was during this break that the Bouncing Souls’ “For All The Unheard” randomly came on one day. I stood there listening to the words, words that seemed to be speaking for my heart, and I started to weep. Was my passion gone? Were all my aspirations, my amusing insight, my writing just going to end up in some forgotten folder on old hard drive somewhere? Was I ok with this happening? I was burnt out and happy to have the break, but at the same time I was worried and scared that was going to be it; another in the line of failed creative pursuits.
Eventually we returned to the site, and let it run its course. It never became what we hoped it would be, and ultimately we shut it down for good in 2012.
I didn’t feel the sting I felt during the hiatus. We had a long discussion about ending the site, and sent it off in a worthy style. I believe this allowed me to have more closure. It is also possible I had more confidence in myself that I could and would keep on creating and nothing is ever permanent. While what I have created has only graced the pages of Microsoft Word documents, it does exist and has just been waiting for me to choose when to unleash it upon others.
That time is now.
I have always felt a strong connection with the music of the Bouncing Souls, and have made many references to this connection in past writing. So with that connection still strong within me I am striking that guitar, I am picking up those songs left in the closets of my mind, I am bringing back the passion in my heart and unleashing all the unheard I have left behind.
I hope you’ll join me as I unleash the weirdo thoughts in my mind like I used to do, as well as speaking more from my heart. You might learn a thing or two, and at worst you get to not work for a few minutes.
It’s time to bring it back.